January 2012
1 post
Jan. Reconnaissance.
Time passes.
I need education. Pursuing higher brings me more power.
People give me favor I din ask for, I shall return it all back.
All back with better rewards.
This is how it works.
December 2011
1 post
So painful… I wanna to get myself angry enough to do stuff requiring certain amount of hate. Every time I reach the peak of it, I just die down again and again, recalling how am I similar to being a bastard like the other greens. I’m not able to do it like how easily others do. I’m sick of it. I’m just waiting for time to do finish my pain, agony you call it.
Very soon...
November 2011
1 post
Mixed.
Every time I recalled the bad times of being manipulated like a puppet, it saddens me.
All of us are >, < or = the age, why do you wanna place pain in other people for own benefit?
I give in to you doesn’t mean you can eat me up. So such thing in the world. But I feel painful if I were to give pain back. Feels like I’m the puppet maker I loathe since then. Dilemma indeed....
August 2011
2 posts
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July 2011
1 post
chill pill.
I’m nobody to judge what is what, neither to judge someone. That’s the One sacred job, ain’t mine. Here be telling my experience dear journal.
I thought to myself, in primary and tertiary education, thought seen world of people. People who willing to give and take no matter how hard some problem sums is and do care to teach you. People help each other in a Peaceful environment....
June 2011
6 posts
sous peine de mort.
Dear tumblr, once again writing for my future’s lookback on myself.
In the toilet after a basketball match, I screamed releasing the fumes of hatred, mixture of everything. Tears rolled painfully for the third time in my life and I felt I wanna let it out. Out, I scared my mother and my siblings. I din wanna do that but I felt so brittle at the moment and all I wanna is feel release…
...
Study again. Date rescheduled.
Hmm.. Seems like alot to study on for this course I’m in. Ironically, we don’t have notes to keep tab on… Only online… and I forgot the password and locked my account up.
My mother wants my little brother to look after me since after the operation in time to come. Hmm, pushing forward may be happening, but whatever. Funny, it was always i take care him ain’t he...
New environment.
Hmm. Perhaps I’m bad in being myself in here or either I’m afraid of things at the other side of the mirror. Seeing what I should not see, seeing things that ain’t right. Sometimes I see things that cannot be solved with my effort but such shades, dark shades are just eyesore to me. Right or wrong ain’t clear at this side of the mirror world.
That probably hinder me moving...
Big coming up in my life.
My shock absorber is damaged and not able to heal; only worsten it will get. Thus surgery is needed.
I hate the feeling of being administered anesthetic and not knowing what’s gonna happen to me. True, I have never done such a thing before and now I don’t even know are there any side effects after the operation.
All these won’t happen… Scumbags.
I’ll swear I get...
April 2011
1 post
Money makes the devil?!
Yes. You gotta the cash, people have to listen what you say. Don’t have you’ll be step on like nobody’s business. I’l tell you, crude and sadly, yes this is reality.
Hatred, anger but nothing can’t be done. Helpless, bottomless pit not seeing anything ahead can kill a mind. Mind death. Easy to be devilish, difficult being an angel.
Piss.
July 2010
1 post
“Bejeweled is addictive.”
April 2010
1 post
March 2010
11 posts
16.15.14.4.5.18 6.15.18 ...
Kinda getting used to sudden impromptu requests from the teachers, wanting this or that.
Nervous definitely each lesson, but I know all these happenings is going to prepare me for the society ahead.
Assignments, what the uppers want, have to give on demand, etc.
Part and parcel of life.
...
16.15.14.4.5.18 6.15.18 ...
Kinda getting used to sudden impromptu requests from the teachers, wanting this or that.
Nervous definitely each lesson, but I know all these happenings is going to prepare me for the society ahead.
Assignments, what the uppers want, have to give on demand, etc.
Part and parcel of life.
...
Downpour.
Sunday. After the night of celebrating my cousin’s birthday, both of us went down to JE complex hitting the gym.
Rain was pouring heavily, we sat at the staircase near a salon. Can’t wait decided to dash towards the complex.
We hit our destination, but was soaked thoroughly from head to toe. Recover not long ago and caught in the rain.
Now, reading the textbook given to be prepare...
Shivering chills.
Sometimes I wonder what’s reality and what’s just a dream.
Dream happening now, or what’s real real?
I hope what I dream is the reality instead of the opposite which I feared. Feared much where my courage ain’t of an existence.
Higher your hopes, higher the disappointment and happens I’m the side where fear such disappointment.
Cold night indeed, still suffering...
Chills.
15mins to spare once again.
We had overstay at wen’s house; some were having mahjong session, some playing ps3 and some watching horror films.
Of course, for me especially, the part of watching live-stream horror films was the most enjoyable portion of the time at his house.
Later on, head to school for some live badminton action with our class-mates. I was feeling kinda giddy later on...
Drizzlling.
With the minutes I have, here I am writing once again.
Days to spend alone is truly sick. Especially when my diet takes place.
Some more, I’m deprived from my laptop and what I do nowadays are either exercise, doing filming at school, or going out with people i like.
If I ate something unhealthy, I have to bear the cons.
Ate something healthy, I feel unhappy but …
Basically, what...
Burn. Heat. Glazing. Dark. wintry. Froze.
What fun it was at the chalet. True, I felt awkward on the first day but felt at home the second day it came. Enjoyed cycling with the kis.
Later on, went back and had chats around, watching movie, slacking, and soon to come, knocking out on the floor of our room.
Woke up and anticipated the upcoming event at night, waiting for the rest of kis.
We went to meet up at bedok, meeting lene, kaiwen...
Cherry red moon.
Last night, I was wondering why my sister was not in her room. I asked my mother about it then she told me she went to malaysia with her poly friend whom she knew few months. I was flaring with fire. That’s dangerous and how can she go there alone? At the very least, I should accompany her.
My mother and my sister worked hand in hand knowing I would have such a reaction. That is what made...
Purified dusk.
Went out with shell, rini and JJ. We were catching a movie named “From paris to love.” We went to kobayashi for dinner, then proceed to the theatre. We were at the basement of cineleisure, then an event near frolick caught my attention.
The boards on the racks says,” If today was your last day, who would you call to?” Something like that though I know I’m lacking...
Humid dawn.
Kinda weird, but I was in a place called lala-land. What was weird is that I never knew such incident could happen. Never to be thought of. Seems so real that I would wondered did I actually done it? Dream? Reality? But, the dream felt pure.
Definitely exponentially better than nightmares.
Went home, decided to rest awhile. My bed entangled me down, and the next digits I saw was seven thirty....
February 2010
4 posts
Chalky dark.
Woke up late, around 3 in the afternoon. Smile was the first thing I remembered. Enjoyable I’ll say, even though Singapore is a KOF(killer of fun) city.
Took a bath, watch some shows then began backing up my whole laptop.
Guess be going school on monday morning, upgrading to windows 7.
Went for a jog later on, since I’m waiting and perhaps I should continue my plans for the...
Nights.
I spent the first and second day of lunar new year after midnight with nice friends whom I thought well of, talk freely without worries. Without them, I guess I be roaming the streets in town~
The second day was kinda less crowded. I forget to check the train time and cause inconvenience for the girls. Well, then even went to play lan with us. I wondered they were trying to make me feel better or...
Peace, joy and laughter.
Seems I have to stray off from caffeine and alcohol. One keeps me awake, the other from what they had told me, I went back to my childhood and sing songs loud~ And I did not droll… It was my sweat on the bed alright.
Today would head down eating reunion dinner which I never hope to happen. Which I was at somewhere else and never to face them again.
But thinking how much fun I had,...
“If you see a friend without a smile; give him one...
“Smile, even if it’s a sad smile, because sadder than a sad smile is the sadness of not knowing how to smile.”
Seeing everyone’s emotional comments on fb, we are feeling dear to each other. Come to think of it, LUCKY i scored badly for ‘O’ levels, LUCKY i like film-making and went in. LUCKY i was me, and I knew a hell of people with great personalities. LUCKY for me, I...
January 2010
10 posts
Misty dark.
Today went to NTU talk at Suntec convention hall. On the way met dellsky, fifi, ken, pris, halim too. Later on, unexpectedly met Kym, another dear friend of mine, who came for the talk too.
Got scolded by her for not asking her to come. Met her mum for the first time and said hi. The both of them do look alike.
Later on, went around with kiat window shopping. He got himself some 170 dollars of a...
Me?
This coming sunday I going out with my sec cliques, Jayme, Michelle, Rini and Joel. This sunday may jolly well be the last time I see Joel; the next time would be two months later.
Perhaps it seems like time would pass fast at a blink of an eye.
To think thoroughly, doesn’t seem so to me.
Hope he would be safe abroad.
Although I told him, ” 2 months only! You not here with us for...
Headshot---> me.
Headache been kicking in randomly, sometimes to the extend of not able to mutter anything out.
Of course, have not been sleeping properly. My timetable of visiting lalaland~ has been turned topsy turvy.
Recalled of failing my 2.4km, feeling the acute pain from… Like a near range shot.
...
Pashy white crescent.
The cycling was enjoyable. What makes me feel delighted is enjoying the cool and salty breeze, and the fresh air coming out of the nature.
Listen to the rhymic waves hitting the shore, look at the vast sea that your eyes ain’t able to go further, it was worth the while surviving the night without a wink.
Enjoyed the company of my friends whom I trust with, enjoy crapping, teasing, singing...
People are ugly.
See yourself.
All of us has eyes to see.
Stop making yourself uglier.
It’s only irks me.
When jokes go over the line, please note your actions.
It will result to other’s displeasure.
Anyway, had a great feast at AMK. Steamboat with the men.
Then, went to Toa Payoh chill out. Saw Twilight series, love the illustrations.
Saw 2NE1’s and G-Dragon’s album and it’s was so enticing to buy it.
Of...
Clear cresent.
Night, walking down the path at Bukit Batok road.
Thinking; pondering while walking together with Qing, Wei, Ji.
Headache. Ouch.
I wondered.
WGM. Getting interesting. Tickles my humor senses.
Instead of dwelling in clips like gags for laughs, might as well watch WGM.
Getting heated up, and I’m laughing my head off.
Such variety shows can really cheer me up~
Again and again~
Laughters. Suddenly my mind came to hearing this song by 2pm, ” again & again…”
Anyway, it has been a hell of fun with the people in my diploma. After seeing my other friends in other polys suffering from many traumas if that’s what they call it, and knives to remove after upon reaching home, I’m one hell of a lucky man.
Have so many nice friends, people I can...
Full moon shrouded by clouds.
Around 4am in the morning, I strolled at the park.
Lay down on the slide and look at the reddish sky.
Saw the big round moon, by mist was all over it.
Went down the path towards my home, saw ah girl( the cat who resides this neighborhood for years and been a companion with me since the nights I went for jogging)
Walked to me, and start leaning and walked in and out of my legs. There...
December 2009
10 posts
NYear. Unexpected.
Father bought my mom and I to eat near my mum’s workplace.
We ate dim sum.
I felt something was wrong.
He ain’t that nice.
I’m ain’t wrong.
He seeks favor from us later.
Which I loathe it.
Wonder when’s the sincerity being conveyed.
Half moon.
It’s half moon now.
Today went out with Skakis.
Michelle, Jamie, Rini arh, Joel, Jun Jie and Gene.
We had a great time at town.
Meet at orchard, 2.
Then, we walk around the area, and the girls were hungry.
Went to ion orchard, b4 if I’m not wrong.
I told Jie that the suckling pig roll is superb! But exp. Lol. In a blink of an eye, we were there buying. XD
The trios were health...
“Losing a best friend to the inevitable circumstances of life is a painful...”
Simple happiness.
Smell the salty air, feel the breeze hitting on your very face, and look at magnificent sceneries that took my breath off; seeing the light of several boats go blinking in the vast ocean that we see through our eyes. What a view indeed.
Surprisingly, I felt relieved from my pains. I was really having fun. Fun which not felt for a long period of time. We sang on the way riding around, crap around,...
Don't lie to me.
One of my greatest hates is when people lie to me.
My little brother did it on me. Disappointed I was.
Before my little brother Melvin, went out I asked him beforehand. “Where you’re going?” Actually, I knew he was heading to the Lan shop.
“Play basketball lar!” That was what he said.
I asked once more but answer received was the same.
I got fury but waited till...
Actions easy to be convey? No, I don't think so.
Sometime when what you’re doing is so obvious, but your motive for that action is not being conveyed to the one you’re hoping to notice.
Happens in life right?
Well, live with it. I’m pretty sure this is happening to everyone.
...
Hmm. What shall I write about?
Arh. That time after meeting my mum for lunch at her workplace, I met this uncle who desperately ask me for money saying need it for transport. Gave him, upon looking at his face sincerely telling me it’s true. Hours later, my cousin told me he met the same guy around Jurong east area.
Argh. I’m really bad at seeing people.
...
Hate.
I recalled my pet in Pet Society called Hate.
Hate is sometime not very nice. With much anger, but not making yourself happy.
Regret then comes in for having the Hate in the first place.
Living is hard.
But then when I saw clips or serials on TV showing how others like the handicaps or even the african kids having pain more than anyone I could think of,
I then have to swallow them up, and...
